Tonight I got a delicious taste of the rewards of motherhood…
Ethan and Joshua were on my bed and Joshua started jumping on it. Ethan said, “Don’t jump on the bed because then Mommy will get asthma. We don’t want Mommy to get asthma because she’s the best Mommy in the world. We have the best Mommy in the world- I can’t imagine a better Mommy than our Mommy!”
Well, if there was ever a time to ask me for something, anything, that would have been the perfect time to ask because at that moment I would have given them anything they wanted…I was a giant gooey puddle on the floor.
After all those years of crying and wondering what I did wrong, of frustration and putting forth superhuman effort to be patient, of trying to do the best I could for them and never feeling like it was enough…it was all worth it…
Moments like that show me that all of my efforts were not in vain, and that everything I have done for my children has made a difference. It has shaped them into the human beings that they are and has shaped my relationship with them. Our bond is strong and I just hope it will be able to carry us through the rough teenage years to come.
Tonight, though, was one of only a few rare times when I’ve felt that I have done a great job raising my sons. It feels amazing!
